Dear Best friend,
I know this seems uncalled for, this letter, it might even come off as a surprise to you, but trust me, whatever’s written in it, it shouldn’t be a revelation. For all the months, days, moments we’ve known each other I’ve let my actions speak for me.
Today when I walked into my bedroom and studied my reflection in the mirror, I realized some things have changed, I looked unfamiliar even to my own self.I was standing straighter, blinking less and watching more. There was a sacred knowledge in my eyes, a realization..
My dear dear stranger, you were once, you wrecked havoc in my life, you changed the dynamics of the game altogether. For the world you might just be a friend, but the way you’ve been with me for the time I’ve known you, you might as well have replaced the world and i wouldn’t even have noticed.
I’ve never felt anything close to this and I don’t know how to navigate it anymore, but when I think of you, nothing else matters, except this…. thing…., this feeling of being a part of a whole, of something bigger than me or you or even the universe…
You know i can get thoughtful out of the blue,get wrapped up in a single what if and take it 3o years down the road and create something that would rarely exist. What if every scenario I think of, with you turns beautiful, what if this over-zealous brain can’t help picking out scenarios where there is only you and me.
One month without the person who means the world to you flies by and you become numb, but when that one person is your world it becomes an excruciatingly painful eternity.
My beautiful secret, you might be the one person who annoys me the most, you might be the one who gets the tantrums thrown at and then the responsibility of damage control. I might be the one you want to strangle at times, the one you can’t seem to outgrow can’t wait to grow up. It’s all understandable until it feels like you take my home away with you when you leave.
You are, in fact, the only one with an opinion and a backbone that counts, who isn’t afraid to tell me when I’m wrong, you tell me what you want and occasionally manage to convince me that I want it too!
I still remember the advice you gave me, “Find a person you will be your equal in every way. Don’t let yourself fall for someone who’ll put your world before theirs. Fall for the powerhouse who lives as fearlessly as you do, find the one person who wants you to create a better version of yourself every day.”
I haven’t done bad, have I? I couldn’t keep these words unsaid anymore and you had a right to know Maybe this was really uncalled for, maybe you didn’t need to hear all this and maybe this might be the turning point for everything that we stand for, but that’s how we started. I asked, you guided.
Sincerely,
The-one-who-wants-to-strangle-you-and- hug-you-at-the-same-time.
